Getting a Grip!

Oh how did I ever get by without the prayers of prayer warriors like you all? Really, you guys are the very BEST and I do want to thank you for lifting me up in this way!

Do you ever feel like just burying your head in the sand? Like there is so much pressure inside of you that you just think you're gonna pop? On top of that the pressure from the outside is mounting higher and higher. NAH, I never feel that way either. LOL! Seriously, that is exactly how the past few days have felt.

I have this lecture deadline looming and time is ticking down. It also happens that my lecture is being given on our visitor's day so I really want it to be effective (plus my mom is coming as a visitor and who doesn't want to make their mom proud?).

I know I can't do this in my own strength but as I struggled to hear God I just kept thinking about the fact we have no food in the house, the laundry is piled up,the house is a disaster, I need to go to the gym, the kids have soccer practice,I need to write and plan for our leadership meeting, I need to go to the dentist, how will we pay for college, is WWIII coming, when will Jesus return?.........basically I have been completely distracted! All of this led to a disagreement over the phone with my husband about our different philosophies of time and money management and the icing on the cake was when the transmission in our Suburban went out!$

So you see everyone in my world is healthy (except maybe my mental health) and things will work out fine but Satan knows exactly which buttons to push to make me ineffective. I have heard the lie repeated over and over for the past couple of days, "you can't do this, you aren't good enough, you will fail, give up...."

Today at CBS leadership I was reminded of the weapon I possess to fight against these lies, the power and truth of God's word. So, I say to Satan,

"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength" and I will choose "not to be anxious about anything but in everything, through prayer and petition, and with thanksgiving present my requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus."

Since hitting a low point yesterday I have written a few pages for the lecture and am feeling a lot more confident. My husband offered to hit the grocery store and now there is food in the house, my daughter has started the laundry for me and the car is in the shop. Things may not be perfect but they are looking much more manageable to me today.

It is funny though, as I look at the 4 lectures I have done this year, 3 of them have been written in the midst of difficulty and stress. I was sick and bedridden, my Dad was on life support in the hospital, and now this one. I can hardly wait to see what next year brings! LOL! To God be ALL the glory!